it's been 4 days.
4 days since i last saw her.
i miss her soo much.
i feel like she was ripped away from me.
i feel like i didn't hug her enough.
like i didn't kiss her enough.
like i didn't tell her 'i love you' enough.

i don't think people quite get it.
they think i shouldn't feel so strongly.
but,they don't understand.
especially with the last couple of weeks.
i saw her regularly.
i treated her like she was mine.
we grew closer..attached at the hip.:]
she followed me everywhere.
we did everything together.
she's my baby.
and it just breaks my heart.

[and you.
honestly,i've never hated anyone.
i always though it was a strong word.
but,it's true.
i hate you.
you're ruining everyone's lives.
just go the fuck away.
you don't know all that's coming to you.
and i can't fucking wait until it does.]

:[

<3

i really,really,really dont like you.
i dont know how else to put it.
you continually make me feel like shit.
i prefer the silent treatment to your talkng to me.

you infuriate me in so many ways.
i want to scream at the top of my lungs
and cry my heart out.

i hate the way i let you get to me.
i dont know why people seek "acceptance" from people who hurt them most.

im done trying.
there's just no relationship there.

i need to get away.

im done.

<3

=]
i would've liked to have gone to the pride parade..
except i didnt know it was tomorrow..=/

i miss all my stupid friends.
=p
then again i wouldn't want to talk much to them.
everybody's in college.
or has a job.
or both.
and what have i got?
nothing.
=[

i can't believe im going to be 20 this year.
and what have i got to show for it?
nothing.
i hate it so much.
i feel like im free-loading off my parents or something.
like they expected so much from me after high school..
and i was just a huge letdown.
i'll stop now...>.<

i want to go to another cubs game.
it's so much fun.

i just want to be useful.

[randomm.]

<3

it's been a whilee...=p

my car's good now.=]

i hate this weather.
>.<
i want it to be cold.<3

not much has changed...

people are still jerks.

and i cant wait to start school.

<3

donee.

first,a flat tire.
now,i need a new muffler.=[
it works "fine" and everything.
it just makes an insane amount of noise when i drive..>.<

anddddddddddddddddd,
new earrings.
"gauged" ears.
they are,but they're not.=p
it's the second smallest.
so,does it count?
my right ear hurts.
it feels like it's on fire.
>.<

people just take and take.
so full of shit.
when everything's peachy,
i don't exist.
but,let everything fall apart,
you always remember me;
coming around expecting me to pick up the pieces.
and,of course,
i always do.

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done.
<3